2013

Hello friends!

are we all still here in one piece? i hope so :)

 

i've taken a bit of a blogging break as you might have noticed (i'm talking to you katie lamia, my #1 fan!) but it wasn't intentional. sometimes, life gets in the way and before you know it a week, or two (or three!) have just flown by.

 

 

...sounds like a bunch of excuses to me, but ok, forgive me anyway?

 

happiest of new years to one and all!

personally, i happen to think we should all reflect on our lives every day, not just when one or another holiday rolls around, but that's just me. sooo in that case:
happy today & happy tomorrow to you!

 

i suppose it's time for the obligatory "resolutions" list of 2013, so here it goes!

 

i resolve to....

 

... clear out my junkmail. unsubscribe from the mass amounts of junk clogging up my inbox. unsubscribe from negative people clogging up my newsfeed, and my life. not feel guilty about it.

 

... work out in some way, every day. take the stairs. park farther away. do situps during commercials or something. actually use the gym membership i get for free. you get my point.

 

... compliment myself every day. i might be harder on myself then anyone else could be. and if i don't love and respect myself why should i expect anyone else to?

.... put $10 into my savings account every paycheck. yeah, $10 is small realistically, but considering i don't save anything in the first place, it's a start.

... hop back on my weight watchers plan. when i first started, i lost ten pounds without even realizing it....then the holidays came and i put it right back on. i'm going to the grocery store in the morning.

... take chances. apply for the job i want, make friends, actually attempt to date, leave my apartment. i feel like time is flying by and i keep looking back and wondering where the last few years of my life have gone.

... be happy. read a book. drink more water. phone a friend. enjoy the sunshine.

...that's it for now i suppose. and now that i think of it, it's all really about improving the quality of my life every single day, not just once a year, so i should just add on something new everyday,
 so here i go...

what are your resolutions?

it's august already?!?

i cannot believe the first day of august is about to come to an end! today was the first time in awhile that ive felt like i didnt screw up the entire day. i didnt stress out about whos mad at me, what im going to do once this summer job is over, how long it will be until someone wonderful comes into my life or any of the other thoughts that have been keeping me up every night and making me feel anxious and lost.

i had a really great weekend visiting my best friend and just enjoying being with someone who knows me, lets me ramble, and makes me feel like im not so crazy- that maybe my ideas and dreams arent so far out of reach. we talked, shopped (of the window variety), got dolled up and went out for "just a drink' which really turned into us stumbling into the best pub ive ever stepped foot into.

i danced like i havent danced in months, really, in almost a year. i felt pretty and comfortable in my own skin. my hair was wild and huge, and i didnt care. i was a sweaty mess, and i just wiped myself off and didnt care. i ditched my heels for some sandals, which for some people isnt so huge but for 5'1 me, its a big deal :) i didnt care if anyone wanted to dance with me or buy me a drink or think i was pretty. i was happy , and carefree, and having a grand old time just dancing with my friend. and i didnt care how silly i looked. maybe it was because i didnt know anyone within 100 miles of the place...but maybe, just maybe, im finally healing.