{ currently }

linking up with jenn from perfectly imperfect today for her { currently } link up!

head over to her blog to see who else joined in :) 

click  ---> { here }  <---- to find out

 { currently . . . }

{ current book(s) }

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easy- the hunger games series..am i hoping for katniss to pick peeta or gale?!

i dont know!!

i need to get my hands on the third book asap

wait...it's a toss up actually,

bc i just started again on my "dating for dummies" book.
and yes, i did purchase it, and i am seriously reading it from beginning to end,

and i may or may not be taking notes this time.

judge me if you will, dating is way hard...i need all the help i can get

{ current playlist }

i started using spotify so i'm all over the place with this one really, a little bit of everything

{ current color }

bobbing for baubles

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{ current drink }

magners apple cider, it's like apple juice for grown ups, yums

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{ current food }

grandma slices from my local fave pizza place,

soooo delicious and practically always just out of the oven

{ current favorite show }

once upon a time, criminal minds, evenge, bones, hart of dixie & american horror story

that's a mix right there if i do say so myself

{ current needs }

oh that's a good one... need a job that i enjoy, need a boyfriend to snuggle with me, need to be healthier, need a magical fairy godmother to drop off rent money for ohhh let's say the first six months of me living on my own

{ current triumph(s) }

oooh i have an answer for this one!!

or many answers really.

i've applied for a ton of jobs to make things happen instead of waiting.

i'm going to move.

AND i haven't had any soda since november 1st!!

triumphantttt :)

{ current bane(s) of my existence }

waiting to hear back. annoying people. being passed over. feeling like a big loser.

{ current celebrity crush }

ryan gosling. the end.

oh wait, and james franco.

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{ current #1 blessing }

my family.

{ current indulgence }

crafting goodies. i went a little crazy at michaels

{ current outfit }

pjs.

it's either really early or really late depending on how you look at it

{ current excitement }

!!!!movingmovingmoving!!!

{ current mood }

hopeful.

{ current favorite holiday decoration }

twinkle lights

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{ current #1 item on your wishlist }

ummm rent money. or a bed. orrrrrrr...lots of stuffs

{ current new year's resolution }

be happy. make things happen. enjoy life. figure out myself. get healthy. love myself. reach out. make friends. take chances. don't be afraid. fall in love.

what are you all { currently } ?

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah

oh hey wednesday

hello, hello and happy wednesday!

well, well i'm moving.

or atleast i hope i am, if everything works out these next few weeks..

soo my theme for todays "oh how pinteresting!" wednesday issssss....

drumrolllllll pleaseeeeeeee

my plans for my new room!!!

first off, i was inspired by julie over at the girl in the red shoes

and the makeover she did in her guest bedroom

it's EXACTLY the look i was going for and i didn't even know it until i saw it on her blog :)

go check it out
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to see for yourself!

i love the look of this grey and white combo with pops of yellow

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again, the grey & white combo with pops of yellow and other colors...
and i really love the floating white shelves

 

 

 

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i already have this bookcase/storage unit from ikea in the birch color...BUT it is was too hard to take apart and then put back together SO i'm hoping to get myself a new one once i get settled in...probably in white

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or maybe i'll paint it like this:

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i really like the white bedding with grey sheets...
im keeping my eyes out for a decent white comforter

and a chandelier like this one would be pretty awesome too

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i'd like each of these pillows por favor.

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i mean really, doesn't the white bedding just make you feel clean and refreshed?

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i'm a sucker for white twinkle lights...

im going to raid a after christmas sale to get my hands on a couple of boxes hopefully

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white & grey frames

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definitely two of these please

 

 

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i have a free standing mirror that's begging to be put to use...

maybe ill do this with the lights?

if i dont put them over my windows

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my mirror kinda looks like this one but is more of a vintagey light green color

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my bed is getting retired so i'm looking to grab this one from ikea..

simple, timeless & the price is pretty affordable

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i'd really like a desk like this...

i think i'd be super productive sitting there

...you know blogging & online window shopping :)

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the closet needs some work so maybe something like this could happen, maybe

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the room isn't huge

so a dresser like this would be good

or that wardrobe...one or the other

if i don't get that shelving unit instead

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i'm going to make myself this chair:

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with a chair i already have that looks like this shape:

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by using this reupholstering tutorial.

my parents reupholster our chairs all the time

so it can't be that tricky

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i don't think i'd want this many frames but i'd like to stick with my white/ grey theme

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sooooo, what do you think?!

head over and visit michelle over at the vintage apple

to see what everyone else is pining lately :)

happy reading!

p.s. i just looked at my blog and realized that it's main theme colors are yellow, white & grey.

my subconcious apparently was already working hard

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah

miscellany monday

{ sorry about my woe is me post yesterday. ugh, even im tired of attending my own pity party }

{ it's a new day, and a new week so i'm starting fresh }



linking up for miscellany monday :)

random randoms


1. hunger games anyone?  for real. i read the first two books straight through from friday and saturday. whoevers hanging onto the third one needs to return it to the library asap.

2. i want a fancy camera to take all sorts of awesome pictures. i used to be attached to my camera, took pictures of every single thing and lately not so much :(

3. i've been a little too caught up in watching reruns of buffy the vampire slayer. my inner 16 year old self is thrilled.

4. it's been a weird day.  super weird.

5. my bangs are the only thing i'm committed to at the moment and i think we may be breaking up.

6. i STILL haven't seen breaking dawn. everyones talking about it and im totally out of the loop

7. i seriously want cowboy boots. legit ones

8. i need a job. anyone know of one where i can read, bake, do crafts, sit in the sunshine, play uno, and running bases all day? anyone...anyone? let me know :)

9. i slept on a queen sized air matteress all weekend. it was like being on my own personal bouncy toy. i slept through the night and woke up early, and refreshed every day. seriously the thing was like a boat. huge.

10. it also may be the only thing in my new bedroom when i move since i can't afford to buy furniture...ohh learning to live on a budget. clearly im new at this whole having to pay my rent thing ..

11. i kinda wish i had an awesome different name... like... greer or sloane orrr anything else that's awesome and unique...i think its because i was reading books with people named katniss and prim..hmm.


do you have any random thoughts? visit lowercase letters and link up!


with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah

warning: this is not a happy, carefree post.

i am not good at dating. or figuring out guys. or..just plain anything.

in fact i can't even remember the last time i went out on a proper date.

i can count the number of guy ive been involved with on one hand, and im ok with that.

i'm not one of those people who can hook up with random people and be ok with it after.

which is why i don't.

sometimes i wish i could be like that though..enjoy someone else for the time and then part ways, satisfied (hopefully) and on with my day. supply and demand you know?

you have something i want, i have something you want, the end.

sigh.

i'm not casual. i couldn't be even if i tried. and i've tried.

( ok that sounds entirely more inappropriate than it should)

i am too sensitive, take things too personally, am too self conscious.

i blame myself if things don't work out, if a guy who liked me suddenly doesn't anymore, when a relationship ends, when i find out that guy picked someone else over me.

it rarely ever occurs to me to blame him. ever. and i have no idea why.

even when i know that he wasn't right for me, that there was no future there, that i could do better, without fail...i always, every time blame myself for it.

i guess it's because when one guy after another

that you find yourself attracted to, liking, finding interesting, just catching your eye...

picks someone else time and time again, you start to really believe that it is you.

and that's where i am right now.

feeling like i'm never going to be good enough for anyone.

because you know what?

it dosen't really matter that everyone else tells me i can do better than whoever that guy of the moment is...because it turns out that he decided he could do better too.

and the better wasn't me.

that's all it really comes down to really. it dosen't matter how smart i am or how funny or how polite or kind or creative or witty i am. it dosen't matter how many people read my blog to see what i have to say, to read the words that come straight from my heart, to know what i'm thinking when i don't want to say things out loud. it doesn't matter if i color my hair, straighten it, take time to pick out my clothes so i look nice, if i wear makeup  or dont. it dosen't matter if i put out or i don't. it doesn't really matter how good of a person i am because no one wants me. i am no ones first choice. because i'm not the hot girl. i'm not the girl people turn and look at when i walk into a room. i'm not worth getting to know. i'm nothing to every single guy whos looked at me and then walked away from me, every single guy whos ever looked right through me, every single guy whos never given me a second thought

i have friends who tell me i need to be more confident, because confidence is sexy.

well i tried confident, i tried going outside of my usual behavior, acting carefree and just going with the flow..and you know how i apparently came across? "really shy"

seriously?

so let's recap shall we?

if i talk too much, i'm overthinking things.

if i attempt to get to know you, i'm being pushy.

if i ask if you want to get together, im being needy

if i don't try at all, im not interested

if i do fool around, im easy

if i dont, im a prude

if im too smart, im not fun

if im ditsy, im not mature enough

i'm not interesting, im not thin, i dont spend hours in the gym, and i have an opinion about things.

im not the sister my brothers friends ever had a crush on, or found attractive.

guys talk about other girls to me, around me, infront of me as if i am just one of the guys.

i'm apparently not worthy of being respected, or even given a second thought.

i'm crazy, deserve to be walked away from, cheated on, and lied to.

i shouldn't expect a phone call, an invite to go out, or even just a text to say hi.

i should always be wearing my best skinny jeans, my highest heels, have my hair done and be totally okay with someone staring at my chest. I should always be hair free, pimple free and smell nice.

i shouldn't expect anything from anyone, because i should just know that i will always be passed over for someone else.

nevemind that the someone else is a bitch or completely stupid or ten shades of awful.

nope.

i should just expect it.

im tired. im tired of waiting. im tired of playing nice and being happy for everyone else around me.

i'm tired of acting like it's totally ok for people to act as if i am worthless.

because i'm not.

i'm someone who is losing hope.

someone who is starting to believe in the awful things that have been said to me.

someone who thinks that maybe there is something about me that drives people away.

sigh.

and yes, i know how my happiness doesnt depend on a guy, and that one day when i least expect it someone will walk into my life, etc etc sunshine and puppies.

i know all that.

but i have gone to bed cold and lonely one too many times and i miss the feeling of waking up  in someone arms. i miss feeling someone reach for my hand when we're just walking around or coming up behind me for a hug when im making dinner. i miss the little things. i miss them so much it makes my heart ache with the loneliness i feel.

ok im done with my pity party. i just needed to get it out. sorry for being such a downer :(

today i had a thought..what if i had never met you?

today i had a thought...what if i had never met you?

on wednesday it was the seven year anniversary of my sorority initiation.

seven years?!

time flies when you're busy being awesome.

anyway, I had two pledge sisters, we started out with way more but i ended up with just two at the end.

i thought we would be best friends forever, not out of obligation or anything

but genuinely because i loved them both like sisters, and they were my best friends by choice.

now seven years later, two of us don't speak to the third.

we had a falling out and she basically broke up with us.

anyway that's not my point here.

neither is the whole sorority aspect of where my story came from...

my point is this..seven years is a crazy long time, but in the grand scheme of things it's really not.

it's just a few years of your life.

but for me, in those seven years i've met some of the greatest friends i've ever known.

friends who come and go in my life, but always pick up again like time hasn't passed.

friends who know me better than people i've known my entire life.

friends that i can't imagine never having met.

these last seven years have been the years that shaped the life i have now, the person i am now.

and i tend to think that my life would be so very different had i chosen to go left instead of right,

stayed home for school instead of going away, go to bed early instead of staying out late, so many other factors.

every choice i made in the last seven years led me to people who have changed my life.

so thank you lovebugs, if you have been a part of my life these last few years, big or small.

if youre still here, or have left my life for whatever reason.

and here's hoping these next seven years bring even more wonderful people into my life--

 to change me for the better, help me grow and continue to push and inspire me to achieve every dream i've ever had

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah

it's ok thursdays

soo...

goood morning (or afternoon really) lovebugs!

linking up for "it's ok" with

Neely & Amber

it's ok...

...that last night i sorted through my clothes

and pretty much the only things i actually like fit into two bins.

...that my accessories probably fit into ten.

...that everything else is getting tossed in the donations bins, but only if i can lift the garbage bags and drag them to my car...otherwise they'll probably sit in my living room with the rest of our "things to donate" for the next three years

...that im off to rhode island tonight for interviews tomorow and can't figure out what to pack

...i haven't touched my "teacher" clothes since my last day of student teaching in may

...that i'm pretty sure

the last seven months filled with gym shorts

( not work to the actual gym, but to summer camp)

and yoga pants with elastic waists have been all too forgiving with my body...

... that i may be packing everything i own just incase

...that my new phone is apparently too advanced for my to figure out, except that it's supposed to be exactly like the one i just had, since it's a replacement

... that the alarm on said new phone sounds like a bunch of crazy magic fairies are coming to land all around your head. imagine that. im not kidding.

...that after discovering that a lot of things are missing from my teaching portfolio ( that were definitely there when i handed it into my professor in may) i now want to fill it up with cards my students made me....because i think that says more about what kind of teacher i am than an example of a lesson plan.

so, whats up with you guys today?

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah

p.s. can i ask you guys to think of me tomorrow while im at these interviews? i'm nervous :(



oh how pinteresting!

goood morning lovebugs!

i'm in a good mood so far today, and i'm hoping i stay that way :)

so here i am linking up with michelle over at the vintage apple for

oh, how pinteresting wednesdays!

link up, follow me on pinterest, or email me for an invite

happy pinning!

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i don't know why, but im a little obsessed with everything lace lately

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those pants? those shoes? show up in my life asap pleaseandthankyou.

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not everyone is meant to be a size 2 or 4.

some women are meant to be size 12's or 14's and are equally beautiful, curves and all.

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Dear Santa,

He said he was my gift.

You know where i live.

and i've been extra nice this year.

xo,

Sarah

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he's just not that into you.

single girls, read the book.

use the book. it's turning into my very own guide to dating.

it's way better than the movie.

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i refuse to sink.

straight & to the point.

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“Following the crowd is not a winning approach to life. In the end it’s a loser’s game, because we never become who God created us to be by trying to be like everyone else” - Tim Tebow

not gonna lie, i know nothing about football players, teams, stats.

but i've been hearing quite a bit about tim tebow, and i must say i'm turning into a loyal fan

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point taken.

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zucchini boats with roma tomatoes, sprinkled with some cheese maybe? yumssss

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hahaha, explains sooo much.

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HOW AWESOME WOULD THIS BE?!?!

hahaha.

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah