you might say i'm a dreamer.

looking for a job is a weird thing.

i basically want to say "hi, hire me please because i'm awesome and think this job would be pretty great and might turn out to be the job that causes me to sit back and say 'i love going to work every day!' and if that's the case, i'll put 110% of myself into it, because i appreciate this opportunity.

my skills include: facebook creeping, writing about random things, baking cupcakes and rice krispy treats, being crafty and pinterest inspired, singing along to the radio like i'm on american idol, making up recipes with whatevers in the cupboards, napping long into the day, making the most of a spot of sunshine, laughing at mostly everything, and sending cards just because.

Why would I be a good fit for this job? Well, i don't know. how do you ever really know how someone will be? really, who cares about what they majored in in college, or what degree they have. if you love the job you have, you'll excel at it, because it makes you happy. I have a teaching degree, but i love cooking so how do you know i couldn't be a successful chef just because i don't have a degree in it? blogging has become the outlet for my long ago lost writings i used to scribble down...so maybe i'm destined to be a writer? ( one that doesn't use capital letters, and lots of {...} ) or if i actually had all the time in the world to be as crafty as i wanted, maybe i could be one of those girls who starts up her own business selling the things lovingly made by hand.....or something like that.

my point is, finding the job you love shouldn't be so hard and for lots of people i suppose it's not. they've always known since apparently forever, what they wanted to be when they grew up. for me, it's not like that. i want to be a million things, and love every single thing i do. life is short, and i don't want to be someone who dreads going to work in the morning, and who counts the seconds until it's time to leave for the day. i want to be happy, use my creativity on an hourly basis, be someone who makes a difference in the life of someone else. i want to know that at the end of the day i have done something to leave a mark on this world. however small, however slight. one of these days i'll find that something that allows me to be those things, and be happy doing it. to some i suppose i seem flaky, always thinking of something else i want to do and be. maybe it's because i've been encouraged to think i could do anything i ever wanted, maybe it's because of all the books i've read, the ideas i have, the life i've imagined for myself. maybe it's because i am afterall, a dreamer.

 

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams,

 

xo

" i'm just practicing living in my new room"

a few gems i've gotten from the fam
since announcing my moving plans:

andrew wanders into my room with his books and starts moving my stuff to sit down:
 
"oh i see we don't even need an invitation
 to come in these days" -me
"oh since youre leaving im just practicing
living in my new room"- andrew

*****

"when you move, i'm gonna miss you like ugly girls miss the prom" - andrew

*****

"so you're going to take everything with you right?
i want the room empty,
i've got a wall to build" -dad

*****

" you know Sarah, you're friends aren't going to let you stay forever,
do you think they like you that much?" -mom

*****

"if they ask you to start on monday,
don't even bother coming back.
i'll just send you your stuff,
i'm already acting like you're there already anyway" -dad

*****

and the post i left on my best friend missys wall the other day:

"ok, here's my plan:

 1. i will get a job i enjoy going to

 2. i will get a second job to pay for extra things...like antonios and fatbellies

 3. i will lose weight, walk more, and drink more water...because i won't be able to pay for groceries, or gas and for my own well being.

 4. i will dance. and dance often. you dont have to pay for that

5. i will kiss boys. often. and enjoy every second of it. 

 6. i will pretend to be in college again with you and attend parties on oakland. think our greek discount will still count? alumni status? def.

 7. i will drive almost half an hour away to go to the beach and pretend it's completely normal.

 8. i will go to boston, to see our friends and have a dance party at the purple sham, since mollys & stings is now out of the plans.

 9. i will do every single fun thing the great states of massachusettes and rhode island have to offer- the random and cheesier, the better.

 10. i will tailgate at a patriots game, pay attention so i know what youre talking about at a celtics game, and happily wander around fenway to see the red sox.

 11. i will invite people over for home cooked meals, wine and good company. resurrection of my old norwood ave parties, just classier.

 12. i will enjoy every single second of the life im choosing for myself, even if other people don't agree and think i can't do it, even if i have to do my own nails and not go out for dinner, and think twice before buying another pair of sunnies or a fab necklace from forever, or sleep on an air mattress in an empty room for a few months because i can't afford to buy real furniture.

i might have to write this out and put it up for my every day mantra."

{ how's that for a game plan? }

andddd.....right now i'm back to writing cover letters and sending out resumes..talk about a serious case of writers block.

thank you to all of you who have sent me kind words through here, twitter & facebook. i appreciate it more than you know :)

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah