Trick or Treat!

Happy Halloween my pumpkins!

I, for one, happen to love halloween and spend months thinking of ideas about what I want to dress up as and can never make up my mind til the last minute. When I was little my parents used to make our costume and they were awesome! The last couple of years I've done a little of both- bought some, made some, threw together what I could find and made it work. Sadly, I've been sick so all my planning went to waste since I spent the Halloweekend in bed so neither my batgirl or tinkerbell costume got any use ( BIG SADFACE, I was super excited about both of them) but luckily today I was Minnie Mouse at work, even though I was pre warned that no one dresses up I still wore my handmade ears happpily

Anywhooo, here's a little trip through my halloweens past in pictures. Sadly I had the most awesome Pochahontas costume in the second grade that I can't find a picture of but I seriously loved it and would wear it again in a heartbeat. hmmm maybe next year I can bring it back in my grown up size.

my first year attempt as a cowgirl...this later turned into my costume of choice three years in a row with slight changes every year

Can & I, we got the gun holsters and everything







the following year I switched my hat, found a plaid shirt and added some bangle earrings...bc you know, cowgirls wear them.







I was either a hippie or nicole richie..you decide.

sailor girl!

arrrrrr...I loved being a pirate! I even had a heart shaped eye patch haha 

A pretty princess in kindergarten

today with my homemade minnie ears

at a costume themed sweet 16 in hs, as an angel...my least thought out costume ever, planned about two hours before I had to be there...also my most comfortable one since im wearing pjs and tank and my fave sneaks..might have to bring that one back

seriously, how cute am i? this was actually my flower girl dress from my aunts wedding

and because this is too adorable not to include, my brother as peter rabbit OR bugs bunny circa 1990

there's my eye patch, I'm gonna need to find a reason to wear it again

i was going for nicole richie as a hippie, because it's the same thing no?

anddd my two costumes from this year that are getting added to my stash for whenever I decide to have a costume party in the summer, because that seems like a good idea.


ok that was fun haha. I'm already thinking of ideas for next year! hope you're all enjoying your day and enjoying your candy! How adorable are these trick or treaters this year?! I saw a kid in a buzz lightyear costume that made my night. Also, one of my kids at work told me he was Jay Z...oooh the creativity!

Happy Halloween!
p.s if anyone ever needs a candy hander outer, feel free to give my dad a call. he is so funny when he answers the door to these trick or treaters that you would have no idea this morning he was really pushing us on the idea of handing out cough drops to gurantee the kids wouldn't come back next year.

for halloween im dressing up as...

...the always sick kid.

So...I'm sick again.

Fun fact about me: I get sick A LOT. In elementary and middle school I used to go home sick practically every week. In high school I'd hit my max allowed 14 absences per semester super quick, in college I'd have to beg my professors to believe I was literally coughing up a lung in my bed and not hungover from too much partying and to please not drop me and excuse my 5th, 6th,... 10th absence from class, pleaseandthankyou.

As a semi grown up, my immune system has not gotten over this..it's actually gotten worse. I have been sick for three weeks now. That's three weeks of weekend plans that I had been really looking forward to that I ended up having to miss out on. The dinner party I was so excited about? nope, couldnt breathe, couldn't go. My batman costume I got on september 1st? early planning be damned because I couldn't go to the party. The tinkerbell costume I worked so hard on to wear tonight? it's going to be turned into a ruffle thing for my bathroom counter, and maybe also a scarf. Nowadays, I don't just get a cold for a day or two, it's a full on illness: sinus infection, bronchitis, pnemonia, strep throat, the flu, anything- long lasting. I'm a frequent visitor at my Doctors office.

sadface, sadface, woe is meee. I was a preemie baby, born two and a half months before I was fully cooked, and got to hang out in the hospital for a little bit before I was finally able to go home. I was small enough to fit in my dads hand for pictures. no joke. picture thumbelina, that was me. If my lack of staying 100% healthy year round is the only side effect I had from all that, then I consider myself lucky.

Have a wonderful halloweekend loves, enjoy it for me while i'm dressing up as the sick kid, in bed.

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams

Sarah

oh and p.s. it snowed today.

It's ok thursday!

First off, let me say hi to my new followers! Thanks for stopping by and hanging out with me :)
I started this blog as a private way to talk about things that were going on in my life, but as I've continued keeping it up and welcoming the world into seeing it, I'm glad to see that people don't mind my ramblings!
So stay awhile, say hello, and enjoy the randomness that is my life. I'm happy to share it with you





Today I'm linking up with Amber from Brunch with Amber & Neely from A Complete Waste of Makeup for "It's Ok" Thursday! I may or may not be on my way to going link up crazy since I figured out how to join in :)

It's ok...

..to be excited that I can finally join in to link ups! They baffled me until yesterday.

..to want to lay in bed all day watching movies because it's pouring rain outside

..to be afraid I'll never get a teaching job

..to be more excited about writing on my blog than I am about applying for said teaching jobs

..to have a crush and believe it will really work out

..to watch American Horror Story through the spaces of my fingers because the whole show freaks me out..but I can't stop watching it

..to be super excited about my halloween costume and it's lack of sluttiness..i'm definitely getting older

..to want to just block every one of my fb friends that are getting married, engaged or pregnant for just a couple of days..i need a time out from the reality of growing up

..to love my super casual work "uniform" while my friends complain about wearing suits and heels to work

..to pin tons of things on pinterest that "i'd definitely make/cook/build/start doing that"...one day

..to be excited it's payday...and only because that means I can get my eyebrows done today. I need a cushion to make myself feel better about not doing them myself

..to want more followers. I know, I know, it's cheesy to want people to like you, but I get so excited when I see I have a new one, and a little :( when I see someone stopped by to read but didn't decide to follow me

..to actually like my hair better on the second day of not washing it than the day i actually wash it, it gets so soft and shiny

..to change my nail polish color atleast three times a week..i just love so many colors!

Ok that's all for now! Happy thursday loves :)

Want to see what other people are saying "it's ok" to? head on over to Amber or Neelys blogs to find out

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams,

Sarah

pinteresting wednesday!

So this is my first time doing a link up and I'm hoping  a. I do it right, and b. it works :)
I LOVE pinterest. in fact, it's because of all the awesome blogs I follow that I found out about it and then got hooked on it. One of my favorite ladies over at The Vintage Apple hosts "oh how pinteresting Wednesdays" so that we can all show off our favorite pins of the week.

I can lose hours of my life on pinterest so it's hard for me to choose just a few of my faves from this week, but i gave it a shot. It's a little bit of everything: fall things I loved, hobbies I want to start, new years resolutions I don't want to wait til new year's for, crafting ideas, diy home improvements and all sorts of other random things...so enjoy!

Wanna follow me on pinterest? Just click my red pinterest button on my sidebar and join the fun. You need to be invtied to join pinterest so if you don't have a pinterest account and want to join, send me an email and i'll send you an invite :)

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Hope you enjoyed my random finds of the week so far! head over to The Vintage Apple to see what other people have shared :)

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams,

Sarah

you are never too old...

ok. i just applied for something that i really, really, really want to work out.

i can't talk about it because i'm afraid i'll jinx it...

but wish me luck, send positive thoughts my way, and add me to your prayers that this will work out for me.

i'd really love that.

with a heart full of hope & a mind full of dreams,

Sarah

and some people refuse to settle, for anything less, than butterflies...

Love is like a butterfly;

If you chase it, it will always be beyond your reach.

But if you stand still, then it will come to rest gently on your shoulder.

-unknown

I've pretty much been a little crazy about worrying about my romantic future. I'm afraid that I've got desperate written across my forehead. It may even be possible that I talk about my lack of a love life to anyone and everyone I see on a regular basis. (ok so i basically know i do...but i've been making a conscious effort to stop)

It's just that I thought I'd be married by now, or atleast in a long term relationship with a wonderful man who couldn't wait to spend their life with me and me with them....right. I've been spending so much time worrying and wondering about when I'd meet the man who is going to change my life for the better, make me happier than I've ever been, just sweep me off my feet...I'm also worrying that I've been spending so much time wondering and worrying that I'm forgetting to live in the here and now. The thing is it's a little rough being the single girl among so many happy go lucky, contented coupled people. I don't know where or how to meet someone..the bar scene isnt working out...and I'm not in school anymore...and I don't work somewhere that I'm likely to meet anyone..

Maybe I'm alone here but I'd like to meet a guy who wants to get to know me. Someone who calls just to say hi, and dosen't play games. Someone who has dreams and is doing his best to make them a reality. I'd like to meet someone who sees me across the room and smiles ear to ear. Someone who kisses me often and hugs me without caring who sees. Someone who has family values regardless of what kind of family they come from. Someone who laughs at my jokes and thinks the little quirks I have are adorable even if they are weird. Someone who will fight for me, and stand beside me, who will protect me and defend me. Someone who dosen't push me for more than I'm ready for and understands that I want to take it slow. Someone who would never betray me or take me for granted. Someone who tells me I'm beautiful every day, even when I'm just waking up and have awful bed hair and sleep eyes.Someone who is so amazingly kind, honest, respectful, just good that they make me want to be a better person. Someone who will grab me and spin me around on a dance floor without minding my lack of rythym but loves staying home and snuggling on the couch with me just as much. Someone who is made up of so many things...more than I can write about. Sure there's tons of physical things I'd like in my future love too, but that dosen't really matter. When I meet him, he'll be everything I've ever wanted in a man, and I'll just think to myself "yes, there you are." And he'll be not so perfect, but he'll be perfect for me. Everything I ever thought I wanted in a man, and so many more things I didn't know I was looking for.

So wherever you are my future love, whether you turn out to be the man I marry or just the man who helps me believe in love again, maybe I already know you, or you're just around the corner, I'm waiting for you. No, I'm not idily sitting by waiting for you to show up on my doorstep, not anymore atleast. But I'm waiting for you, with open arms, a funny joke, a heart full of hope, and a mind full of dreams of a future together with you.

be brave loves,

The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences

"I think you really should make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. "-An excerpt from a letter written by Chris McCandless, in Jon Krakauer's Into the Wild

I know this may be stating the obvious but I'm a little lost in my life. If you've been catching up with my posts, you can see I mention this uncertainty concerning not only my future, but my current here and now fairly often. Last night I was sitting in my living room reading and my dad was in the adjoining dining room doing a crossword. Those moments are some of the best ones I have with my dad. I like the fact that sometimes we can share a comfortable silence, and we don't need to talk about a million things, we can just share a silent moment both of us doing something that relaxes us. I know he's noticed my lack of motivation, my all around discouragement and confusion in where my life is going, so I've been waiting for him to bring it up. Last night he did: "Sarah, are you ok?"

No dad, I'm not.  I'm lost and confused. Where am I going? What am I doing? Who am I supposed to be? When will I meet someone worthwhile? When will the life I imagined I would have start happening?

Every morning I wake up and ask myself these same questions, and really a million more just like them. I'm a worrier, and have panic attacks that make me need to turn on all the lights and find someone to be near me so I know I'm ok. I'm also a dreamer, a girl with such strong wanderlust that I want to just pick up and go, backpack across the world and see everything I possibly can, while I still can. I'm a girl who's wanted to be an astronaut and a veterinarian, a baker and a photographer, a race car driver and a teacher. I'm a girl who wants to lay on the beach in Uruguay and sit in her Yeya's kitchen as many times as possible before she is gone and the chance will pass me by, but I'm also a girl who developed a fear of flying and hasn't gotten on a plane in almost six years. I'm a girl who wants to create a home, build a family and fall in love, but I'm also a girl who wants to find  a career that is fulfilling and makes me want to get up and go to work every day. I'm the girl who has a million hopes and dreams, but also is terrified that her life will end in an instant before she can make any of them come true. I'm a girl who wants to go out on her own, live a life that she can be proud of, take every chance possible and make a difference to at least one person, but I'm also a girl who is worried about what may happen to my parents, my brother...myself,  if I go too far from home.

So I answered my dad, "no, I'm just a little lost in my life right now..." His answer? "So? let's move, find a job, apply everywhere, get going, but go south, I'll come too".

And you know what? he's right. It really is that simple. What do I have to lose? Nothing. You never gain anything if you don't take a chance, and especially if you don't believe in yourself. And if you don't believe in yourself, why should anybody else?  Lucky for me, I won't ever be alone, even if I move across the country, because I have people who believe in me and want to see me be happy and make my dreams a reality.

my parentals, 2011

before I was even a thought in their minds, circa 1983

That's where my minds been today, thinking about what I can do now, what's my first step. And then I read this post a toast to Ch-ch-ch-anges , and it made me realize that I'm not the only one out there who needed a change, took a risk, and made it happen. Which is why I am up at 4:30 am filling out an application for an opportunity that is out of my comfort zone, but could really change my life if it works out.

Because really...what do I have to lose? Wish me luck.

be brave loves,

turn that frown upside down!

ahhhhhh! after my little whine sesh while I was at the library tonight, I came home to find out my internet was back up and running! hoooray! I've been attached to my computer ever since doing a whole lot of nothing...typical. Sometimes it feels like the computer sucks me in and hours go by with nothing getting accomplished. Kinda like this:



ok, it's late, I just gave myself an awesome manicure and I need some sleep. Goodnight loves!